Summer is supposed to be a relaxing fun loving time off from school right? Wrong! Right now mine is filled with work, work, work. I am stressed out a bit right now because of my new SAC job I acquired. For those of you who dont know, I am the new Novelties Director of ODU’s Student Activities Council. To be honest, like any job I receive I kinda just jumped right into this. I mean yeah, I have been doing SAC since freshman year. But that was as a committee member, so I was pretty much was doing the brunt work. I had no idea all the planning that is involved. Now its not like they just dropped this on me all of a sudden. I was getting a little bit of training before the semester was out. But here I am now doing it on my own, and quite frankly guys…I’m scared. For those of you who do know me personally, nothing really seems to scare me but this does. Mainly because I dont want people to think I am incompetent. One of the things that hurts me and when people feel like they cant rely on me, or dont think I can handle something. I really dont like letting people down, it kills me inside, and I feel like that right now. If I dont get this done, they’re going to think I am no good. And I dont want that. I just need to take a deep breath, relax, and do my work. I know I can do it, I just have to believe in myself.
In other news, I am going to have some serious time management issues coming up. I start class on the 27th, which is not so much a problem cause they are evening classes. The problem relies on finding time to do driving classes. Yes I am one of a handful of people who are over the age of 18 and do not have a driving license. For me its very embarassing, but I really want to take the classes now cause I dont live with my parents, mainly my dad to stress me out to much about that. I will be doing it on my own terms and I like that. Now the driving class is only two weeks but I dont want to waste precious internship hours. I want my 3 credits for this damn internship*side note* (I was planning on graduating in December, being one semester late but still class of 2013. But my father was not having that and insisted that I graduate in May. Which I agreed. I mean most of my friends and the love of my life will be graduating then plus he is willing to pay for the extra classes I need. But after seeing my schedule for the fall, I am having some doubts and maybe a little regret about my decision.*sigh* when will I learn to say no to him.) But yes I need 135 hours to get credit for the internship and I want it cause I will have no time for it in the fall. So I dont know I am going to fit everything together.
My solution is time management, and just relax. Also if I make a mistake, dont be so hard on myself. As I say all these things now, its going to be hard to remember during a moment of weakness. I think for right now I need a glass of wine and just go to bed. Carpe Diem tomorrow!